Looking out the window, I saw no snow
Only sign of Christmas was a little red bow
I was sad, for no Christmas of White
It was then that I saw the most memorable sight
Up in the sky, far above my head
Was a sleigh, and a reindeer's nose that was red
It was then that I learned Christmas did not need snow
Sometimes it just needs a little red bow
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Monday, December 6, 2010
Redemption
This is one of the three topics I wanted to write about early on. (Hope & Love being the others)
Redemption: (relevant definitions from dictionary.com)
2.deliverance; rescue.
3.Theology . deliverance from sin; salvation.
4.atonement for guilt.
In religion, if we truthfully ask for forgiveness we receive it. In life, it depends on being sincere & the other party. To ourselves, that is more difficult.
I committed an act of jealousy & anger against my best friend & his future wife. As time went on, I realized how wrong I was, and apologized. They forgave me. I apologized to God, he forgave me. I have never been able to forgive myself for this; it has been over 10 years since we patched things up.
The bad that has happened in my life, I felt I deserved because of my actions. Self-pity & loathing led me to losing my hope & falling into despair. (Like how I tied them together)
I can not undo the things I have done, but I finally am beginning to feel the embrace of redemption. I may be beaten & broken, but I am being redeemed. I am becoming the man I was, and whom I was meant to be.
It may be 10 years later than I wanted, but here I am.
I feel that if I can be given forgiveness & redemption, anyone can.
Redemption: (relevant definitions from dictionary.com)
2.deliverance; rescue.
3.Theology . deliverance from sin; salvation.
4.atonement for guilt.
In religion, if we truthfully ask for forgiveness we receive it. In life, it depends on being sincere & the other party. To ourselves, that is more difficult.
I committed an act of jealousy & anger against my best friend & his future wife. As time went on, I realized how wrong I was, and apologized. They forgave me. I apologized to God, he forgave me. I have never been able to forgive myself for this; it has been over 10 years since we patched things up.
The bad that has happened in my life, I felt I deserved because of my actions. Self-pity & loathing led me to losing my hope & falling into despair. (Like how I tied them together)
I can not undo the things I have done, but I finally am beginning to feel the embrace of redemption. I may be beaten & broken, but I am being redeemed. I am becoming the man I was, and whom I was meant to be.
It may be 10 years later than I wanted, but here I am.
I feel that if I can be given forgiveness & redemption, anyone can.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Despair
Despair is sadness to the Nth degree. It is the bottom, when you hit bottom.
People try to deal with it, to varying degrees. Some drink, some smoke, others eat, some lash out, some use drugs, some withdraw from the world, and others give up and try to end their lives.
It is not as simple as talking to people that will make you feel better. People say, " I am here for you", after the fact; but few seldom do it before. It is not entirely their fault, the world has become more about the "me" and less about the "we".
If you care about someone and you think they may be hurting inside, talk to them. It is in these moments, that a life can be saved. When a person is buried in despair, more often than not they will not talk about what they are going through.
That is the darkness that destroys people. It will eat anyone up, no one person can deal with it alone. If a person matters to you, you see them falling apart; don't just mind your business. You go to them.
One person can make a difference. If you save a life, you change the world, and help make it a better place.
People try to deal with it, to varying degrees. Some drink, some smoke, others eat, some lash out, some use drugs, some withdraw from the world, and others give up and try to end their lives.
It is not as simple as talking to people that will make you feel better. People say, " I am here for you", after the fact; but few seldom do it before. It is not entirely their fault, the world has become more about the "me" and less about the "we".
If you care about someone and you think they may be hurting inside, talk to them. It is in these moments, that a life can be saved. When a person is buried in despair, more often than not they will not talk about what they are going through.
That is the darkness that destroys people. It will eat anyone up, no one person can deal with it alone. If a person matters to you, you see them falling apart; don't just mind your business. You go to them.
One person can make a difference. If you save a life, you change the world, and help make it a better place.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Hope
I have decided to go ahead and use this blog to talk about my views on aspects in my life. I will eventually cover love, sadness, despair, amongst others.
Today, however, I want to cover hope.
Hope gives us courage, it gives us an outlook on the future. It is one of the keys to life.
Hope is what makes me get up every day. While I have none of the things I wanted by this age, my hope is what keeps me going.
But we all lose hope, and that is when we have our times of weakness. These times can overwhelm us to tragic points. I am not going to preach and talk down to anyone, only the individual can overcome these times. Sometimes they can be overcome with friends, or family or a church, or a stranger; but sometimes they can't.
Life is hard, but never give up on your primary goal(s) in life. From: getting the girl you love to dancing at your kid's wedding to seeing your grandchildren. Let no one keep you from your goals, not even yourself. It is your faith in these things that can get you through the bad.
At the end of 2009, I gave up on getting the one thing that I want out of life. Little did I know that I knocked out my own foundation. Everything in life got to me quickly. Not long after I tried killing myself.
After I informed people of this, they tried to help. I appreciate their words and actions, but it was up to me and me alone to get the job done.
It has not been easy, and sucked for the most part, but I am getting there. I will not give up on that one thing ever again. It is from there I get my strength to deal with the day-to-day stresses.
So I ask you all, not to give up hope. If a loved one passes away, live your life and try to make them proud of who you are and will become. If it is because you are seriously ill, then enjoy the time you have left with those you love. We only get one shot at life, even if we die; it is these moments and memories that make us live on.
Hope is my foundation and "hope"fully it can be yours too.
Never give hope up, never
Today, however, I want to cover hope.
Hope gives us courage, it gives us an outlook on the future. It is one of the keys to life.
Hope is what makes me get up every day. While I have none of the things I wanted by this age, my hope is what keeps me going.
But we all lose hope, and that is when we have our times of weakness. These times can overwhelm us to tragic points. I am not going to preach and talk down to anyone, only the individual can overcome these times. Sometimes they can be overcome with friends, or family or a church, or a stranger; but sometimes they can't.
Life is hard, but never give up on your primary goal(s) in life. From: getting the girl you love to dancing at your kid's wedding to seeing your grandchildren. Let no one keep you from your goals, not even yourself. It is your faith in these things that can get you through the bad.
At the end of 2009, I gave up on getting the one thing that I want out of life. Little did I know that I knocked out my own foundation. Everything in life got to me quickly. Not long after I tried killing myself.
After I informed people of this, they tried to help. I appreciate their words and actions, but it was up to me and me alone to get the job done.
It has not been easy, and sucked for the most part, but I am getting there. I will not give up on that one thing ever again. It is from there I get my strength to deal with the day-to-day stresses.
So I ask you all, not to give up hope. If a loved one passes away, live your life and try to make them proud of who you are and will become. If it is because you are seriously ill, then enjoy the time you have left with those you love. We only get one shot at life, even if we die; it is these moments and memories that make us live on.
Hope is my foundation and "hope"fully it can be yours too.
Never give hope up, never
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