This is one of the three topics I wanted to write about early on. (Hope & Love being the others)
Redemption: (relevant definitions from dictionary.com)
2.deliverance; rescue.
3.Theology . deliverance from sin; salvation.
4.atonement for guilt.
In religion, if we truthfully ask for forgiveness we receive it. In life, it depends on being sincere & the other party. To ourselves, that is more difficult.
I committed an act of jealousy & anger against my best friend & his future wife. As time went on, I realized how wrong I was, and apologized. They forgave me. I apologized to God, he forgave me. I have never been able to forgive myself for this; it has been over 10 years since we patched things up.
The bad that has happened in my life, I felt I deserved because of my actions. Self-pity & loathing led me to losing my hope & falling into despair. (Like how I tied them together)
I can not undo the things I have done, but I finally am beginning to feel the embrace of redemption. I may be beaten & broken, but I am being redeemed. I am becoming the man I was, and whom I was meant to be.
It may be 10 years later than I wanted, but here I am.
I feel that if I can be given forgiveness & redemption, anyone can.
